User blog:GalactaK/Reasoning for (continued) absence.

Ok. To all those who give a damn about who I am, you will know that I have been really inactive for a really long time, only doing a battle every so often. Well, I feel sorry about that, and so I am trying to give a few reasons for my absence.

1) Schoolwork

I've already listed this on a couple of battles as a reason as to why they took forever to finish, but I'll elaborate more clearly. My school is one of those schools. You know the ones. The ones that incessantly tell you that you have homework from x, y and z subjects that have to be in for what seems like the next second. My school also starts making us revise for GCSEs one year earlier than most of the country, so I have to revise for that. It's really time-consuming.

2) Worry

As a person, I suffer heavily from anxiety. I worry about almost everything. Even when I'm not worrying, I'm worrying. This is the only place where I feel that I can feel particularly carefree (even then...) Recently, I've been worried to death that I'm becoming a worse writer (bit annoying, considering that's my ideal career). So I've been taking a break to see whether I can become better at writing, as well as a better human being, since I feel that recently I've become more of an asshole.

"I know it sucks balls to wait, but sometimes it takes a long time to make them right, because we don't want to make them suck balls." Theodore Roosevelt, ERB News

3) Other interests

I've kinda drifted away from this place. It pains me to say this, but I don't enjoy being here as much as I used to. Don't get me wrong, I still love this place, and everyone still seems friendly enough from what I've seen. But I've just found other things that take up more time and just seem more fun.

I've also started trying to create a fictional universe of my own with a few of my friends at school. I already started writing up a short pilot story for one of mine on DeviantArt (Look up Shade: The Serial Attempt if you're particularly interested). That just takes up a lot of time simply trying to think up story arcs and whether or not to post them online without my friends' permission.

So, yeah, that basically sums up why I've not been writing as much. I do hope you understand.

Apologies in advance, though. I do try to go on here as often as possible, but I always have other things on my mind why take up my time and energy.

GalactaK